Nat, my mom is really sick. She was in the Intensive Care Unit much of last week. Her cancer cells are back up to 30%. She is so precious to me, yet I am stuck here in CA until the middle of June and cannot be with her. My siblings are having trouble growing up and thinking about people other than themselves. Lisa is 4 months pregnant and Mom is talking about flying out here for the birth of the baby. I am scared that she wants to at least see a grandchild in her lifetime. What am I to say?

A Song Says It.

Feel it falling off like clothing
Taste it rolling on your tongue
See the lights above you glowing
Breathe them deep into your lungs

It was always simple
Not hidden hard
You've been pulling at the strings
Playing puppeteer for kings
And you've had enough

But the search ends here
Where the night is totally clear
And your heart is fierce
And now you finally know
You control where you go
You can steer

So hold this feeling like a newborn
A freedom surging through your brain
You have opened up a new dawn
So bring on the wind and the rain

Cos you've been listening for answers
But the city screams and all your dreams go under

But the search ends here
Where the night is totally clear
and your heart is fierce
so now you finally know
you control where you go
you can steer

-Missy Higgins

* This song says exactly what is inside me. I think I am living off of other peoples songs until my own come. I know they are there though. :)